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Self pity and venting ahead.
Well, the worst has happened regarding moding tools and I lost my copy of photoshop. I cannot make you feel how incredibly this sucks. Now I have no choice but to learn to use Gimp. It’s probably a fine program and it can probably do what I need but that doesn’t really matter right now because I don’t know to use it.
My skill as an artist and moder just got set from intermediate to absolute zero. I can’t do shit. I know I should sit down and just learn it, it probably won’t even take that long, but I’m too miserable and depressed right now (Also I’ve never had great luck with tutorials).I just want it to be easy and it can’t be. So I think I’ll just wallow in self pity for a while.
The worst thing is, even if I get good at it I’m not sure the files I export will be compatible with games and other moding tools. Last time I used Gimp the codex it uses fucked up all my textures and made them unusable. And maybe there’s a way to solve that but that’s another really time consuming thing to try to do in addition to learning basic shit.
There is a certain amount of legitimacy to my feelings but that’s not all that’s happening here. My stupid depression brain is telling me I’ll never be happy again and there’s actually no way for me to feel better or act more mature right now. I wish there was because I can’t fix this when I’m upset because I’ll probably have a melt down.
Well, the worst has happened regarding moding tools and I lost my copy of photoshop. I cannot make you feel how incredibly this sucks. Now I have no choice but to learn to use Gimp. It’s probably a fine program and it can probably do what I need but that doesn’t really matter right now because I don’t know to use it.
My skill as an artist and moder just got set from intermediate to absolute zero. I can’t do shit. I know I should sit down and just learn it, it probably won’t even take that long, but I’m too miserable and depressed right now (Also I’ve never had great luck with tutorials).I just want it to be easy and it can’t be. So I think I’ll just wallow in self pity for a while.
The worst thing is, even if I get good at it I’m not sure the files I export will be compatible with games and other moding tools. Last time I used Gimp the codex it uses fucked up all my textures and made them unusable. And maybe there’s a way to solve that but that’s another really time consuming thing to try to do in addition to learning basic shit.
There is a certain amount of legitimacy to my feelings but that’s not all that’s happening here. My stupid depression brain is telling me I’ll never be happy again and there’s actually no way for me to feel better or act more mature right now. I wish there was because I can’t fix this when I’m upset because I’ll probably have a melt down.
